If you want more love, why don't you say so?

With my birthday less than a month away, I've been thinking about where I am in my life right now. My professional and family life is great, but when it comes to matters of the heart, I wish it was better. For one thing, I keep thinking that the age I'm going to turn this year, 28, was the same age that my mom gave birth to me. She got married two years prior and I wish I was there already. Maybe not with kids yet, but with someone.
Add to the fact being asked at family functions if you have a boyfriend or when you're going to get married. Or knowing that one of of my friends or my younger sister might be next, it makes me feel like I'm slowing inching to cat lady status. Yes, 28 is still young by all means, but we're not getting any younger. I don't have a Delorean to travel back to my 18 year-old self. I also know that I have family and friends that love and care for me. But sometimes it's disheartening to think that I have so much to offer to that one person I have yet to meet.

Maybe that's the other thing. There's so much contradictory dating advice, that we don't know what to pick. They say you need to put yourself out there but you shouldn't look too hard because you'll find that person when you're not looking. I really started putting myself out there in the past year with no such luck. After my last failed attempt at a relationship, I took a break from dating, taking time for myself. It was good, but maybe it's time to try again. It's the only thing I can do cause I can't complain then not do anything about it.

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I'll just stop rambling on now. This is what happens when it's two in the morning and you can't go to sleep because your head is clouded with stuff.